For him, who’s always losing her.

For the nth time… you’ve lost her.

And only one question stays: ‘Where did I go wrong?’.

Your sanity floated away from you, too far away and you want her to give it back. And so she did. No matter how many times she drifted away, she keeps on coming back, coming back to the same path… closer to you, closer and closer and closer and as you took a hold of her hands, you assured yourself; I will never ever lose this person again.

You’ve made a list to yourself on how you won’t. Your to-do-list became endless. You didn’t get tired of trying—of waiting. You reminded yourself once again; I will never ever lose her. No, I won’t.

You admired her like how you see the awesomeness of the sunset, the full moon, the waves at the sea and every damn beautiful things this world would be incomplete without.

You sing her to sleep.

You wrote her letters.

You didn’t let her feel alone.

You didn’t make her feel unwanted.

You held her hands.

You hugged her tight.

You said hello but never goodbye’s.

You healed her wounds.

You accepted her scars.

You made her feel special.

You made her feel loved.

You gave her everything… almost everything.

But you’ve run out of things to do on how you won’t lose her. You go to the last one—you love her. You love her and you love her and you love her while she’s loving you back. You love her and you love her and you love her but suddenly she drifted away… again.

Then you realized, there’s no such thing as not losing people, there’s no such thing as ‘how you won’t’, cause if it’s time for you to lose someone, you’ll have to lose someone. No matter how much you tried to chase them, if they aren’t your finish line, they aren’t your finish line.

For the nth time… you’ve lost her.

And the answer to your question stayed: “I forgot to love myself.

(Inspired by CM, Feels)

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